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The Post Where I Get Serious…. And Tell You How Much I Weigh

Chapter 1: Let’s be serious

Last weekend I had a very random moment of “what the hell?”

I decided that I am actually going to do something. And dammit, when I decide to get all serious about something, shit gets real.

I decided that its time to actually lose weight.

This has been a goal of mine for a while. But I’m not gonna lie. I’ve been half assin’ it. I guess I just haven’t had optimal motivation, I lost interest, I just didn’t put my heart into it, etc. I mean “lose 20 pounds” has been on my goal list for like, the last 5 years.

Okay, so maybe my “what the hell” moment wasn’t so random…

Something did initiate it.

While at the doctor for my annual appointment a couple weeks ago, usually they just weigh me and say “okay…no change there” and move on. Not once has anyone ever said anything about “oh you need to lose a few, oh you need to watch it, blah blah” (I have weighed the same for about 5 years) but this time I got some nurse that was all over zealous and shit….I actually got an “okay lets look at the chart…”

What chart?

The “how hefty are you?” chart. Ding ding ding! (I think it was actually called like “Are you a healthy weight?” But I like the way that “how” and “hefty” sound together…ha).

I was actually kind of [really] interested in a good way, because no one at a doctors office has ever talked about my weight..and I mean I kind of knew I could stand to lose some obviously for my height.

So she goes on, “Okay, so you are 5’3 and 167 pounds….. I would say you have a medium frame…. so let’s see…that means you are almost in the obese category.”

Excuse me the fuck what?

Okay. I’m not in denial, and I knew already that I needed to lose at least 20 lbs; but I am hardly obese. No wonder so many people in America are “obese.” Basically I am 20 lbs over the “healthy range” for someone with a LARGE frame. And I am considered a medium frame.

Naturally… I went home and did some research on that damn “how hefty are you chart” to see if it was an inaccurate portrayal (I was kind of hoping). I know everyone is different and whatnot, but damn – I found pretty much the same info everywhere I looked. That shit was legit. (The chart at my doctor’s office had similar numbers to this one if you are curious).

Anyway. I was kind of like DAMMIT… this means I really should try to lose some weight.

Chapter 2: Ugh. WEIGHT.

Weight is a hard thing for me though, not in the sense that I have had a huge struggle with it or am emotional about it – I’ve actually never had a problem with it; and I tell people what I weigh without thinking about it – but more in the sense that I don’t feel like weight is necessarily the “best” indicator of how healthy you are. You have heard me say a million times that I fluctuate 3-5 pounds almost daily. Daily. I mean what the hell? (I tried to weigh myself daily for like 2 weeks to see how my body responds to stuff… yeah that didn’t last long).

Like some people are all “I lost 3 pounds!” and that is awesome for them, but damn. I lost 3 pounds yesterday. And gained 4 today. And I’ll lose 2 tomorrow probably.

But seriously, I will use this as an example:


Last May I was in really good shape. I say really good shape because it was the best I felt and the best I looked in a while. I thanked my then newish training program for that. Fo sho’

And one thing I was super happy about – I had dropped almost a solid two pant sizes(!)

Well… I was only 6 pounds lighter than I am now – I weighed 161. As someone with a good 20-30 pounds shouldn’t be that noticeable, you know what I mean?

Point being…


Yeah. The scale isn’t a friend of mine.

It’s funny because I read or follow all these other people on their journey to healthy/weight loss/whatever and everyone ends up ditching the scale because they see how it isn’t their best friend.

I feel like the opposite. I hate the scale, but for once, I actually need to use it.

Chapter 3: So why is now the time?

Why not?

I think I finally just decided I need to get it together. Luckily, when I actually put my mind to something, I am pretty serious about it. That’s how I know I’ve been backburner-ing this goal for a while.

Naturally, I want to lose weight so I can make that chart my bitch. I feel like making a doctor appointment when I lose like 20 pounds, asking for that specific nurse, and doing it all over again and be all like this to the chart.


But really, like I said, I’ve know before that that I’ve wanted to lose some… for a couple reasons. Mostly, I knew I was considered overweight for my height. So in a way, thank you over zealous nurse – maybe that was the extra motivation that I needed?

And I feel like everytime I go into my closet I do the “dammit I have nothing to wear” thing as I am surrounded by clothes because I just don’t like the way stuff is fitting me. Yeah, yeah, how very vanity of me.

But really, I feel pretty good. I think I am the healthiest I’ve been in a while.. so why not finally dedicate myself to getting that number down?

Chapter 4: But I love foooooooood

Seriously. I love food so much.

Luckily, I love exercise too. A lot. So I have that goin’ for me.

But dammit; no matter how much denial I was in, I finally realize that this statement is true….

“You can’t out exercise a bad diet”


WHY. Why does that have to be true? But it is… and I hate that [stupid science]. Because I love food (I wonder how many times I will say that before this post is over).

But okay, I don’t really have a bad diet. Actually, comparatively speaking, its not too shabby at all. I don’t eat fast food, I don’t drink soda, I don’t eat a lot of processed stuff, I have cut back my red meat to once, maybe twice a week. I eat a lot of fruits and veggies… etc. I just eat a lot of that healthy food. I’m like a bottomless pit.

I mean I eat a lot, and sometimes I eat kind of fast. And sometimes I get protective over my food (like Joey on Friends). I mean there have been times at restaurants where Torrance was like “geez, sometimes you’re scary while you’re eating.” And I’m like “shut up and eat your Bruschetta……….Or I will.”

But no, really. This is where I need to get it together. I just need to be a little less… enthusiastic.

I need to cut back on the carbs some. And I don’t mean like Atkins diet style, I just mean cutting back to a normal amount. I’ve been known to carb load like I’m running a marathon. When in reality, I’ve never ran anything more than 3 miles (..and that was one time).

I blame it on things like… nothing. I really don’t blame it on anything (it’s because I’m Italian?) I just love food and carby deliciousness.

Chapter 5: So how’s it gonna go down?

Basically, I’m going to continue doing this:

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And eating like this:

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But, since you are supposed to be all specific when you set goals, here are the official deets.

I set a specific goal of 140 lbs. That is 26 pounds from what I weighed last Sunday (166). I don’t have a specific date in mind. Just do it…? Yeah? Does that work okay?

I know you are supposed to make milestones to keep you motivated (or at least it sounds like a good idea) so naturally, that first milestone will be 159, and then 149.  I say milestone because that is when I will get excited.

Basically, I know my problem spot is my eating – I just need to watch how much I’m shoving in my pie hole.

  • I’m sticking to lean proteins
  • Upping my veggies (I already eat a lot of fruit)
  • Focusing on keeping my processed carbs to a minimum
  • Counting my calories. I haven’t done this for a while, but I’m a numbers girl – so I like seeing stuff all laid out. In honestly, its science. After talking to my trainer, we decided on starting with consuming around 1400 a day. He thinks I need more since I’m active, but we are going to start with 1400 for now to see if that ail help kickstart my losing.
  • I will continue attending my regular group training 3x a week PLUS adding 2 days of working out on my own… and trying to bump up the cardio (ew, cardio)
  • I actually took some before pictures, so I can take progress pictures down the road for comparison – something I’ve actually never done – fun!
  • On top of that, I had my trainer take my measurements since I seem to show more progress there usually anyway
  • I’m going to try not to throw my scale off the balcony because it is a dirty lying bitch, and instead, use it to weigh myself twice a week (annoying) so I know how it’s going
  • continue to drink 120 oz of water


As a side note; though I do plan to share progress with you guys here and there, I dont want this blog to turn into a full blown weight loss blog (which there is nothing wrong with by the way, I like a lot of those), it’s just not really my style.

So you can expect most of the same around here, with some of that thrown in. Deal?

  • If you are someone who has weight to lose – what was your “dammit it’s time to get serious” moment (if you had one)?
  • Any goals you decided to get serious about lately?
    Last year I got serious about my water drinking goal finally and did it, and I felt/feel so much better!
  • Scale – love it or hate it?
    Hate it
23 Comments Post a comment
  1. Awesome! Looks like you have a great plan, and I’m excited to see your progress! Good luck with the scale – I can’t even look at that B right now I hate her so much, lol….but I know a lot of people find that the scale keeps them on track. 🙂

    April 2, 2013
  2. I did find that it was difficult to be really honest about how I was eating until I starting writing down everything. I didn’t really have a “get serious” moment but I did start WW again this part Jan in support of a friend. And things have gone better than I could have expected. But I am seriously active and eat mostly fruits and veggies. I am a daily weigher because it helps me to right the ship when it gets off track.

    The Kidless Kronicles

    April 2, 2013
  3. Last year I decided to give up the scale for a month. It seemed like the longest month ever, way longer than 30 days. I thought for sure I had gained lots, but when I finally stepped on it, I was exactly the same weight as 30 days before. I made myself stress and anxiety over nothing. I can definitely understand why you’d want to get rid of your scale.

    Good luck with your goals!

    April 2, 2013
  4. Losing weight is so hard but I love that you have a sense of humor about it! I hate number charts for weight, especially the stupid BMI chart. You look amazing in the bikini photo and the chart saying you were overweight is totally wrong in my opinion. Also, the BMI chart or others do not take into account muscle or fitness…but they can totally drive you crazy! I love your scale picture too! It is so brave to put your weight out there on the internet for anyone to see! Good luck! 🙂

    April 2, 2013
  5. good for you! Weight for me is complicated like it is for so many other people. I have pretty much been “overweight” my entire life and don’t really know any other way. I have never been proud of my body or excited about how I look. I don’t think I look horrible, just never proud. Since I find loosing weight so difficult often times I just don’t give it the attention it deserves. Plus it doesn’t affect a huge part of my life. I have friends, an amazing husband who loves me, and my worth is not measured in pounds. All that being said of course there is value in working out and watching what you eat. Ugh. complicated. I am proud of you though that you are putting so much effort into it. I think you look great and I would probably cheer and tell the world if I weighted 167 pounds!!! Can’t wait to read about your progress. 😉

    April 2, 2013
    • Thanks Cinnamon! It’s funny – that is a really good way to put it – like you havent given it the attention it deserves and it hasnt been a big part of your life because I think that is EXACTLY how I look at it too, just didnt have the right way to say it. Like usually when I tell people about it I am so non-schalant about it and they are surprised but its kind of like “whatever” but I guess that is why I feel like I need to take it seriously now or else I will just forever backburner it!

      April 2, 2013
  6. Wow, this is such a honest post! Good for you! It’s extremely hard to lay it all out there. I actually think it’s wonderful that you don’t rely on the scale. I have the opposite problem, and I’ve been trying to break myself of the habit for awhile!

    April 2, 2013
  7. Love your honesty and transparency, girl. I’m going to be having my baby any second now, so I’ll be having to try to lose the baby weight after that. But, like you, I love my food. I find it incredibly difficult to “diet.” Of course, I won’t actually be dieting right away because I’ll be breastfeeding, so it’s important to eat enough for my baby’s sake. But I do think I should be eating healthier. And I don’t want to. Haha! 😉

    April 2, 2013
  8. Ok, first of all I just want to tell you I laughed a bunch while reading your post. I love your honesty!!! I gained like 15 pounds my sophomore year of college. My real moment was when my clothes didn’t fit properly…I suddenly was like whaaa??? I got serious about eating way less processed foods recently just to be healthier. Hate the scale because I don’t think it honestly shows you the truth about your health. It’s bad for me mentally so I steer clear of it 🙂

    April 2, 2013
    • Yes, the clothes not fitting is a tell tale sign unfortunately. And it always seems like “all of a sudden” but I always wonder… Hmmm “this didnt just happen yesterday, it just snuck up on me!!”

      April 2, 2013
  9. LOVE this post. I think we talked about this before, but I use MyFitnessPal, and it’s amazing. I love how easy it is to track my calories and it really seems to help me. I can’t wait to watch your transformation – just don’t forget to treat yourself to some wine 🙂

    April 2, 2013
    • Wine is a must! I have only had 2 glasses in the last week. You know that is like climbing Mount Everest for me 😉 haha!

      April 2, 2013
  10. HATE HATE HATE the scale. I haven’t weighed myself in… uh, maybe a year or more. What’s the point. Seriously. Weight constantly fluctuates! I swear I fluctuate like 10 pounds in a DAY! And I hate how a stupid number can dictate people’s moods for the day! So screw you scale, buh bye! lol

    April 3, 2013
  11. Good luck! Having written everything into your blog should keep you on task and motivated. You’ve got nice clear goals! I’m pretty similar at the moment…5’8″ and weighing 166lbs. At my lowest I used to weigh 143 and am desperate to get back down to this weight and want to do so by healthy living rather than crazy diets. Lately I’ve just been about making better choices as I am already quite an active person but after my marathon I intend on focusing a little more on getting rid of some of my excess pounds!

    April 3, 2013
  12. Awesome plan!!! I’m going to send you an email, I am doing a biggest loser challenge with friends on Facebook starting next Friday; $10 to join and winner takes all.

    April 3, 2013
  13. I agree, the scale sucks and is a terrible indicator. I’m one of those “weigh yourself every day” people and I fluctuate about 1 lb up or down a day. I am definitely a bigger girl than you, I weigh 2 lbs more than you, and I’m 5’9″. You’d think with our comparisons, I would be a bean pole. But nope. I’m not. The “chart” says if I gain another pound, I will be in the overweight category. So that just goes to show how crazy different we all are and how we carry weight differently.
    Anyway, my point here is I think you look great. Eating is my problem too. And I feel ya. So let’s kick these last pounds in the ass and feel healthy. 🙂

    April 3, 2013
  14. I am the same height and weight, and have similar struggles. I look forward to watching your progess and getting ideas for myself!

    April 4, 2013
  15. It sounds like you have a great plan and will get to whatever your ideal state is – just don’t let a chart or numbers dictate your health! One of the best things that I’ve learned from my trainer is that what matters the most is how you feel – if you have energy, feel strong, and are motivated, you’re golden 🙂 A body fat percentage test is also a better gauge than a number on a scale…

    April 4, 2013
  16. I’m really glad that you’re tracking via measurements instead of the scale. The scale BLOWS, but yeah, can be useful sometimes.

    I had been hella excited to start a new weight training program on April 1 because the 1st of a month is a nice round little date, but then life, you know. boo. I need some of your motivation!

    April 4, 2013

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